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Alot has been happening to me lately,
and i guess i'm being forced to change..
To get a fresh new start, I'm not going to write in here anymore
Starting over at http://sminling.spaces.live.com

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Sunday, April 30, 2006

Now my tv's spoilt. If my parents hadn't exchanged their tv wif mine den it wouldn't be mine datz spoilt now. And everybody who im looking for are lyk not there. Today's really not my day huh.

MinLinG 9:23 PM

Zero creativity. Im gonna end up in engine. Great.

MinLinG 4:40 PM

Monday, April 24, 2006

I got a job! hEe. my colleague called me up today to find out whether am i still looking fer a temp job.. hEe. Im gonna get my purple canon powershot or a blue casio exilim! wHeE! After sitting at home fer three weeks, im beginning to get really bored and feeling really poor.. Cant wait to start earning again~

My eye is alot better.. not pain not swollen.. but im still on medication tho.. To those who i've been complaining to fer the past week.. sorry k~ haha i was acting lyk a total bimbo.. but itz all fine now! hEe. No pus no pimple, not a single scar~ ^-^

Im beginning to wonder about the reason behind me wanting to get into the course so badly.. Izzit because that's what i want to do in the future or izzit just because i cant deal with rejection.. i mean.. no point trying so hard to get into such a demanding course if all i want is to prove that i have what it takes to get in rite.. dunno la! Nobody likes to get rejected.. but i guess i just cant handle it as well as others.. I tink i need to grow up and deal with failures.. Cuz life's full of screw ups.. If i cant deal with screw ups and i get upset over small things lyk failed banana fondues and sucky artworks im gonna snap again lyk how i snapped a half a yr ago..

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are

There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold

You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time You'll find the way

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

MinLinG 11:12 PM

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

i've got a swollen eyelid.. uber pain.. daMn ugly somemore. doctor said itz because of a tear gland inflammation.. aiyah gonna be wearing glasses fer probably a week or so.. =(

i was trying to oragnise my clothes yesterday.. lyk sorting them out according to colours, length, tops or bottom.. goodness. i had no idea i have so many clothes. some of em i dun even rmb wearing.. so kay, i better stop shopping.. hm.. maybe juz stop shopping for tops la.. haha i need bottoms which are non-denim material and not long pants.. and i better start a uni clothes collection.. i need sleeves t-shirts, comfortable pants, presentable flip flops, jackets, and wat else arh.. oh sports wear.. haha i've been wearing those pe/cca/free event shirts so i havent got any decent ones.. i need a bigger cupboard.. i dun wanna share wif my brother anymore..

my room still looks lyk a hurrican has just swept past.. haha working on it to get it to look neater.. if i dun have girls clothes and handbags lying ard you'd probably think dat itz a guy's room.. okay~ back to work!

MinLinG 3:06 PM

Monday, April 17, 2006

im worried.. i heard the med students got their notification letter.. i havent recieved anything yet.. im worried.

MinLinG 9:27 PM

Friday, April 14, 2006
she chopped my hair..

i went to rebond my hair! wahaha..finally! lyk after six yrs of complaining abt my waves i finally did it! Now everything looks good except fer one thing...... itz uber short! im daMn pissed. there goes my long flowy straight hair image! she practically CHOPPED all my hair off! i had to beg her to stop i said: "please stop.. i got no more hair fer you to cut!" Argh. i bet she happily snipped off two inches.. and to imagine dat i told her to trim! goodness. i tink all hair stylists has this thingy against trimming.. Argh. now i have to wait uber long fer it to grow.. i tink my hair grows almost at the same pace as my height.. their measurement never increase at all de.. i wanna dye my hair again leh.. want a more chocolate-ty brown.. lyk dat model nicole in america's nxt top model.. meanwhile shall wait fer it to rain money first la.. TeEhEe~

im gonna go back to rj fer cca camp tomorrow! yay~ daMn excited abt it! Had to reschedule my tuitions resulting in a super crazy schedule.. but im sure it'll be worth it~

i just gave my student extra tuition time.. cuz i din realise.. haha itz almost an hr extra lor.. i feel lyk being evil and charging his mum fer it..

MinLinG 5:32 PM

Wednesday, April 12, 2006
For someone special *RuBs NoSe*

This is from The Tigger Movie.. i like this song..

sunny days and starry nights and lazy afternoons
you're counting castles in the clouds and humming little tunes
but somehow right before your eyes the summer fades away
everything is different and everything has changed

if you feel lost and on your own
and far from home
you're never alone, you know
just think of your friends, the ones who care
they all will be waiting there
with love to share
and your heart will lead you home

funny how a photograph can take you back in time
to places and embraces that you thought you'd left behind
they're trying to remind you that you're not the only one
that no one is an island when all is said and done

if you feel lost and on your own
and far from home
you're never alone, you know
just think of your friends, the ones who care
they all will be waiting there
with love to share
and your heart will lead you home

there'll come a day when you're losing your way and you won't know where you belong
they say that "home is where your heart is"
so follow your heart and know that you can't go wrong

if you feel lost and on your own
and far from home
you're never alone, you know
just think of your friends, the ones who care
they all will be waiting there
with love to share
and your heart will lead you home..

HeE. Just wanna let yOu know that yOu'll find your way.. >,<..k yawa wodniw nsm eno tsuj ma i

MinLinG 1:12 PM

Monday, April 10, 2006

Today was my last day at far east corporate affairs.. im feeling a lil sad to leave.. just when im warmed up to the place and the people, i gotta leave.. but hey itz just part of life.. haha.. anw i brought my camera to work and hunted down every single one of those who din wanna take picture wif me last week..

This is my boSs..

This is our senior manager Bee Imm..

This is Angeline~ she's the one who always helps me.. i tink i wud have screwed up alot more things if she werent there! She's daMn qt.. she'll write down all the things dat she's gotta do on post it pads and stick it all over her cpu.. den the whole cpu is lyk full of post it pads cuz shez got alot to do.. and her table's always full of papers and files.. she'll walk in and say "look at my table! where's my table!" hahahaha..

This is Linda~ my boSs' secretary.. she's just given birth to a healthy baby boy and now she's back! and datz her work station where i used to sit at..

The 3 of us are stationed in the same office room.. our boss' room is juz next to us... aiyoz...

This is Dennis~ he insisted dat chicken little takes the picture wif us... -.-" hahah he's the one who said "you do one, i do fifteen!"

This is the graphics and retail department.. they say the photo looks lyk 全家福 with the grandfather and father sitting infront...

This is Lewis~

This is the upstairs Dennis.. this one is dennis cheong.. juz now dat one's dennis siau.. wah daMn confusing...

This is peggy.. she's a temp too! hEe the cute part is the person who she's temping for is called peggy too!

This is Joyce.. i wholeday go bug her fer my t-shirt design de.. hah oOpz. i tink she's super pretty!

This is Mae.. she's a designer who fights fer her designs.. kewl mum of one boy.. i tell you all the mums in my office are daMn slim de lor..

Jeffery.. hahaha i always call him and complain dat he never give me correct/sufficient info to raise PR.. >,<

They treated me to lunch at pizza hut!

MinLinG 9:01 PM

Sunday, April 09, 2006
Photo Entry

Since tomorrow is my last day at work, i tot i shud take some pictures wif my colleagues.. so i armed myself wif the pok camera and tried to catch those who are not camera shy~

Rachel~

Julie~

The senior secretary Wendy~

The senior manager Lay Kheng~

They treated me dinner on friday.. This is Fei Fei~ i used to be daMn scared of her cuz she looks uber stern in the office.. haha~

This is Stan~

Still got alot of people never take picture wif me.. all of em say monday they dress *quote* nicely den take with me.. haha they daMn cute la they..

MinLinG 12:16 PM

Saturday, April 08, 2006

i tink it is bad to tink too much into other people's words.. izzit an inborn thing to tink too much or izzit a habit.. hmmm i carn really decide.. good friends will tell me.. "dun care about wat they say! trust yourself!" and they're rite, i need to trust myself.. but somehow every word dat people say will slowly take me down, making me doubt myself more and more with every comment they made.. Not good at handling criticism? Maybe. Insecure? Probably. I am so afraid that i would wake up one morning and realise that i cannot be the same person who i used to be a long long time ago.. i dun want to wake up feeling dat the world's a cruel place.. i dun want to have to try so hard to make my smile look genuine.. i want to turn back time and return to a place where all i have to worry about is basically getting my homework done and getting full marks for my spelling test.. to return to a time when i used to be satisfied so easily.. to return to a time when i dun need to worry about how to protect myself from people.. to return to a time when i dare to let people noe my true feelings..

Words.. when unspoken, are just letters without meaning..

MinLinG 10:10 AM

Friday, April 07, 2006
i wanna be a _______ when i grow up~!

the secretary's back! wahaha. so now i've got nuthing to do~ i met the architect yesterday.. he's so handsome! when i got back to office.. i found out from my colleagues dat he's a part time model -.-" no wonder... i was expecting to meet some arh peh or some super toot person lor! hahah i was daMn shocked when i saw him.. which is not good cuz i was tongue tied most of the time.. anw datz not the main point.. i really found out quite alot abt wat it is like to be an architect.. itz very interesting yet at the same time very demanding.. he's a very capable guy.. very confident, articulate, presentable, daMn smart.. he showed me some perspectives and floorplans and explained design stuff to me.. i look at him, and i look at myself.... i dun tink im up to the job leh =( he told me being an architect is not juz designing.. i have to be able to "sell" my design.. so i need good pr skills and alot more la.. he told me being an architect is not just a 9 to 5 job.. itz more lyk a 9 to 9 job; 9am dis morning till 9am nxt morning when your deadline is due.. but the good thing is everyday is different.. there is no routine unlike and accountant where you count money everyday or a doctor who see patients.. the job description really appealed to me.. but itz just dat i dun tink im capable enuf to handle dis kind of job.. so as the Q&A session went on.. i felt more and more lousy and i could feel myself shrinking smaller and smaller and i spoke softer and softer.. it was a very scary session la... now im not quite sure whether i shud still take on the architecture course anymore.. moreover he told me.. first yr enrolment, always abt hundred plus.. final yr masters graduate, only thirty plus.. making it into the course doesnt neccessarily mean you can go the distance.. and im afraid dat i dun have wat it takes to go the distance..

I have often dreamed
Of a far off place
Where a hero's welcome
Would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer
When they see my face
And a voice keeps saying
This is where I'm meant to be
I'll be there someday
I can go the distance
I will find my way
If I can be strong
I know every mile
Will be worth my while
When I go the distance
I'll be right where I belong

Down an unknown road
To embrace my fate
Though the road may wander
It will lead me to you
And a thousand years
Would be worth the wait
It may take a lifetime
But somehow I'll see it through
And I won't look back
I can go the distance
And I'll stay on track
No I won't accept defeat
It's an uphill slope
But I won't lose hope
Till I go the distance
And my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star
I can go the distance
I will search the world
I will face its harms
I don't care how far
I can go the distance
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...
I will search the world
I will face its harms
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...

MinLinG 11:59 AM

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

im alone in office.. and im bored! nuthing to do leh... haha bet you all muz be tinking why im so mah fan.. got things to do--> complain, nuthing to do---> also complain.. but seriously, i uber boooored.. and nobody else is in the office to be bored together with me! *wHiNez* anw they're all off to this donation ceremony at fullerton.. i carn go cuz im wearing jeans.. DaMn. my colleague somemore looked at me at said "you arh.. home alone la." please. this is not my home lor!but itz still a good day la~ hEe. any day without a boss in the office is a good day! eh eh~ they somemore told me they're gonna da bao food back from fullerton fer me!*bEaMz*

yesterday's tuition was horrible.. i was so mad at jenson dat i tink i got a heart attack or something.. my chest was daMn pain.. i yelled at him lor.. and i tink i glared at him pretty fiercely..kinda felt abit guilty abt it tho.. but you guess wat he did...... he giggled! he got the cheek to giggle noe! he dare giggle! wah liao eh if i were his mother i wud have slapped him! Aaaaaargh. he can go be some road sweeper or some toilet cleaner la! i dun care le! stoOpid boy. Apparently kids above 6 yrs old are all not angels anymore..

im gonna meet a practising architect tomorrow leh! im nervous.. the meeting's 9.30am.. so i guess i'll be able to slp till abit later la.. hEe~

MinLinG 3:25 PM

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

from next week onwards im officially out of job.. haha which means~ im free! now you all dun need to bend your schedules to meet me liao! HeE. okeh the downside is im gonna have to wait until i get another job before i can buy my canon ixus.. but for the time being.. heck dat! haha~ i can finally slp till lyk twelve pm everyday! im happy~

im getting fat... pasar malam is very bad fer me.. hahaha.. there's one near my place.. and i go there every nite! tell you why.. there's cotten candy and muah chee and the soft kind of keropok and the goreng jackfruit and deep fried oyster cake and and dis time i found something datz super rare..... chou4 dou4 fu4~! hahaha itz daMn nice! not chou enuf but still quite good! hEe.. you tell me liddat how can i not get fat.. i carn fit into my jeans le la...

MinLinG 4:53 PM

Sunday, April 02, 2006
Ice age

Kenef brought me to watch ice age today! he said datz my birthday gift.. haha yay finally somebody who watches cartoon wif me willingly.. *lookz at shuying and frowns* anw back to ice age.. itz daMn qt!!! and farnie! and qt! and lame too~ hahah i just ran out of vocab.. but yupp i had a very good laugh inside the theatre.. itz a good show if you're not one of those ppl who wants a plot in the show.. cuz the show has absolutely no plot.. not much anw..

My w-inds new album "THANKS" is out! well actually it was out quite some time ago.. hahah but din really have the time to make my way down to hmv to check it out.. i went today.. it's 60 bux can.. heart attack.. *soBz* i guess im gonna wait until im feeling rich.. or maybe i'll juz get the taiwan version la..

HeE. Cuz i feel lyk it.. let you see my w-inds!

This is the poster of their new album~

*你看不见我..你看不见我....可我永远会陪着你.. yakusoku desu.

MinLinG 10:19 PM